Where have my words gone

August 1, 2008

in Bits & Pieces

A miniature thesaurus combined with a dictionaryImage via Wikipedia

I’m feeling a little icky today. I think Cinderella has shared her tummy bug with me. The one that entailed a midnight change of sheets and PJ’s earlier this week. As I was looking for ways to describe the revoltingness of the cleanup (don’t worry, I’m not going to) the only word I could think of was “yukky”.

It’s been over seven years since I left the grown up world of work and entered the other grown up world of being a stay at home mum and raising kids. I’ve seen a lot of changes in myself over that time. My attitude to a lot of things has changed, I’ve become better at housework, I can make tears disappear and haggle with the best of them.

One of the stranger things that’s happened is the nosedive in my vocabulary. My words have gone. It’s a side effect of having 80% of my conversations with kids, and I’m sure I’m not the only person it’s happened to. But it’s frustrating.

I have conversations with mums that work and I feel like such a bumpkin. They use big words. They use flourishes. I say “yukky”. Do you know how annoying it is when having a disagreement with The Thinker not being able to think of a word in the middle of my killer argument?

Blogging has helped. I have time to sit here and think. I have my trusty thesaurus just a keystroke away. I haven’t quite reached the point of carrying one around with me though.

For most of last year, it was even worse. The CML medication I was taking made me even more fuzzy than the kids do and I would forget the simplest of words. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t make them move from the steel vault that is my mind to the tip of my tongue. Words like “frequent” or “cheque” or…um, I’m having trouble remembering.

Perhaps I need to stop reading so many fairy stories and start reading literature. I could stop watching Playschool and Spongebob and tune into The 7:30 Report and Parliament – oh no, wait, that’s more infantile conversations (used my thesaurus for that one).

Perhaps I need to risk sounding like a complete dunce and seek out more conversations with people who still have their words.

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